张敬轩 – My Way

I’m not new to this song. But after becoming a mother, listening to this song have a different meaning. I wish to dedicate it to my kids and hope that they will one day find their way.

一 直 在 酝 酿 一 直 在 盼 望
爸 爸 和 妈 妈 唯 一 的 理 想
二 月 第 一 天 一 九 八 一 年
我 第 一 次 对 他 们 眨 了 眨 眼

等 待 快 点 过 去 多 少 个 明 天
希 望 这 个 宝 贝 快 快 长 大 一 点 一 点
身 体 要 健 康 所 有 的 事 情 都 如 所 愿
baby 长 大 以 后 就 是 小 轩

I will find my way I want a different way
I’ll change the wind and rain There be a brand new day
小 时 候 受 伤 有 人 心 痛 失 落 有 人 安 慰
现 在 遇 到 困 难 自 己 就 要 学 会 面 对

I will find my way I want a different way
Nothing will stop me now No matter what they say
困 难 要 用 我 的 坚 强 和 努 力 勇 敢 面 对
现 在 用 心 去 追 感 觉 就 对 I’ll find my way

一 直 就 这 样 找 我 的 方 向
不 理 会 别 人 奇 怪 的 眼 光
直 到 有 一 天 我 忽 然 发 现
梦 想 已 经 在 实 现

等 待 快 点 过 去 多 少 个 明 天
看 着 自 己 已 经 慢 慢 长 大 一 点 一 点
我 的 生 活 应 该 让 我 自 己 学 会 掌 握
想 信 自 己 不 怕 风 雨 再 多

I will find my way I want a different way
I’ll change the wind and rain There be a brand new day
小 时 候 受 伤 有 人 心 痛 失 落 有 人 安 慰
现 在 遇 到 困 难 自 己 就 要 学 会 面 对

I will find my way I want a different way
Nothing will stop me now No matter what they say
困 难 要 用 我 的 坚 强 和 努 力 勇 敢 面 对
现 在 用 心 去 追 感 觉 就 对 I’ll find my way

I will i will find my way
I find my way

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Sodagreen 《小时候》: Of Father and Son

《小时候》

小时候,我们的城市像郊外,我们的脚步很轻快
当时天空很蓝,心很小,路很宽
长大后,我们的存在像尘埃,我们的距离被拉开
有时相处很难,想很多,话很短

我要爬上你的肩膀,我要眺望你的远窗
我忘了问,什么样的倔强,让我们不说一句真心话
我要长成你的翅膀,我要拂去你的沧桑
我忘了说,心里面的愿望,始终是要你的肯定啊
从你温柔眼眶,绽放

(我相信,今天他一定装上了翅膀,来到现场,听我唱歌)

这时候,我们的心变得柔软,放下了父子的身段
知道时间太晚,不要躲,不要散

我要爬上你的肩膀,我要眺望你的远窗
我忘了问,什么样的倔强,让我们不说一句真心话
我要长成你的翅膀,我要拂去你的沧桑
我忘了说,心里面的愿望,始终是要你的肯定啊
从你温柔眼眶,绽放

我要爬上你的肩膀,我要眺望你的远窗
我忘了问,什么样的倔强,让我们不说一句真心话
我要长成你的翅膀,我要拂去你的沧桑

我忘了说,但我仔细回想,脑海里最珍贵的一幅画
是你载着我,叮咛我,要我抓牢肩膀
安心在你背后飞翔

记忆中,我们的一切,随着你老去的脸
成为永远

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I attended their concert last Friday. More on the reviews later as I’m unable to type Chinese now. But one of the section that greatly moved and disturbed me was this.

Qing Feng (the lead singer) was sharing about his relationship with his father. He recalls that when he was young his father will bring him out every weekend to explore new parks to play. But he doesn’t recall since when they stopped talking to each other.  Until one day when his father was critically ill and in the hospital, just as Qing Feng is about to leave the hospital room, his father called out to him and said “你要加油哦…” (It means something like Don’t give up and do your best). He walked out of the room and tears just stream down. And the next day he recorded this song as a demo and played it to his father.

Seriously, I was very “disturbed” after the section. Till the next day, I still feel very disturbed by it.

I’m disturbed not because I’m like him or that I don’t talk to my Dad. But rather I know there are always somethings between a Dad and his son. My bro doesn’t get along very well with my Dad. They always squabble with each other. Chubby doesn’t get along well with his Dad too, but that is for some more serious reason which I won’t share.

So how will it be like for my son and Chubby? You know the lyrics is so close to us that I can literally picture it with Chubby and Zai. Since we are both working, we always try to make the best of weekends for our kids. Especially to Zai who can’t stand staying at home for too long without activities. So we went exploring parks, go swimming and any activity we think might interest him. Just like how Qing Feng’s dad use to bring him around. Unlike in Taiwan, we don’t have the luxury to bring him to place that is closer to nature, but if we can we will do it.

Like Qing Feng’s dad, Chubby likes putting him on his shoulder too. To give him a good view of the surrounding and its less tiring for Chubby to carry. These few days when I see my son sitting on his Daddy’s shoulder, I will think of this song.

So will Chubby and our boy walk down the same path as Qing Feng and his Dad?

I brought up the topic to Chubby. I’m glad he didn’t brush it off but came out with a good reason from his point of view why such things happened. From his experience (?), he feels that its because traditionally, Asian fathers are the strict ones. When a boy is in his teens, he has a huge ego, so he will tend to rebel against things. However, the Asian fathers will tend to handle such rebels with a strict force and greater ego, thereby leading the boy to rebel even more. So it became a vicious cycle. And soon, they will be at “cold war”. But underlying, actually the boy is yearning the most recognition from his Dad, which Asian fathers are “stingy” in giving.

I think that Chubby is quite right. I really hope that by knowing this, Chubby will be able adopt a different approach next time when our boy grows up. You know, sometimes its easy to understand but its really difficult to do. Like these few days the boy had a huge problem eating his medicine. We both lost our patience with him. It reached a stage that Chubby actually caned him. I know it hurt his heart to cane him and he knows it won’t help much. But still, he can’t help it. Knowing and doing is really different.

I just hope that years later, I will still remember about this and calmly remind Chubby about it and hope that they will still remain as really good “friends”. My boy is actually more attached to Chubby than me. I really wish to see this continue forever and ever.

What are your thoughts about Father and Son? Are there ways to keep them still close to each other?

戒指

詞曲: 伍百

將這戒指為我戴上我不要自由
將這戒指為妳套上妳只屬於我
從今以後只有妳能將我全看透
不分日夜我的身邊總為妳保留

今生今世怕要讓妳為我來擔憂
一次一次我會做錯要妳原諒我
不會再有第二個人能將我左右
心是冰的如果這時妳掉頭就走
相愛只要一瞬間就註定到永遠
不知道該不該說說妳也需要我
心裡不安又忐忑 牽著你的手
輕輕對妳說出口 要不要嫁給我

今生今世怕要讓妳為我來擔憂
一次一次我會做錯要妳原諒我
不會再有第二個人能將我左右
無論什麼我都願意只要妳開口
相愛只要一瞬間就注定到永遠
不知道該不該說說妳也需要我
心裡不安又忐忑 牽著你的手
輕輕對妳說出口 要不要嫁給我

將這戒指為我戴上我不要自由
將這戒指為妳套上妳只屬於我

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Last Saturday we attended the 20th Anniversary World Tour Concert by 伍百 and China Blue. I’m not really a 伍百 fan. I only know a few songs of his but Chubby was the one who is more actively “involved” in his songs. The concert performance by 伍百 and China Blue were good but more can be improved on other areas like the location. I don’t mind it being at the RWS since I prefer a more cozy feeling when it comes to rock concert. But the place really look like a convention hall and the sound system sucks.

The crowd was an older generation, so don’t expect them to stand throughout the whole concert. But I was surprise that most of them promptly stand when requested by 伍百 and remained standing till the end of the concert. If only 伍百 have requested them to stand earlier. 😛

One of the songs that really caught us is this 戒指. Being our “matchmaker”, this song somehow struck us even more.

All in all it was an enjoyable concert, but I think I need to go listen to more of his songs before he come for his concert again the next time. 🙂

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“The Matchmaker”
For us, we always consider two “person” to be our “matchmaker”. First is St Andrew. The second is “伍百 and China Blue”. This is because we both first met each other at SAJC for our 3 months course. However, we lost touch soon since we both went to poly. We still see each other around since its the same poly but we never really got in touch.

Fast forward 10 years later, we saw each other again at ABC concert. Although the concert has other artiste, but the main reason why I went to the concert was for “伍百 and China Blue”. He was working on the concert, so he happened to see me. And surprisingly we remembered each other. And exchanged phone numbers there and so the story continues. After we got together, we realise that we should have met each other earlier. Cause I attended a few concerts where he was working in. But we do not know why we only finally met up at the ABC concert. So we feel that its destined that “伍百 and China Blue” will be our “matchmaker”.

Since the ABC concert we attended another concert of “伍百 and China Blue” with Ah Yue a few years back. But this is the first time we are attending a pure “伍百 and China Blue” concert together. So much has changed between us from the ABC concert till now…

Review: Seimpi Music

This is NOT a sponsored review.

We have been thinking of bringing Zai for some music lessons before he turn 2. This is because we see that he shows interest in music and movement. However, I scouted around and most places only accept kids 3 years and above and a few 2 years and above. So we decide to push back the plan till he turns 2. So a few weeks back I posted on SMB asking for music schools review and one of the names that came out was Seimpi Music. So off we went to the Funan branch for his first trial class.

According to the website, the class is meant for 2 years and above and is designed to improve the brain developments of the kids. However for Chubby and Me, we just wanted Zai to have fun and develop an interest in it. (Hence we never think of sending him to kindermusik, where they are required to do HOMEWORK)

Anyway, the trial we went is an actual class that have started weeks back. I thought it was a pretty good idea cos I really get to see how a normal class is like and not a “model” class. We were a little late so the class has already started when we arrive.

Basically the class was conducted using the song “Clap Along with Me”. But they will be doing different stuff using the song. Example, they will “ride” on the parents leg, tap their head, shoulders, knees and toes. They also get to shake the egg shaker with the music or tap on the tambourine. I think this is a really good song to teach rhythm. (Chubby took over for the 2nd part of the class, but I heard its more or less similar)

Zai enjoyed the class a fair bit, although he was a little shy. However, he was able to follow thru most of the instructions and enjoyed the ride on my legs. He was smiling away. But it wasn’t his usual noisy giggles.

We didn’t sign up in the end. Cause Chubby felt that the class wasn’t “structured” enough. I thought this comment coming from him is a little surprising since I’m always the structured one. Plus I felt its ok that it isn’t so structured for a creative play. But I think I kinda get what Chubby is trying to say. You won’t exactly say that the class is messy but probably the flow wasn’t there. But maybe it’s difficult for 2 year old kids.

Chubby 2nd reason is what I totally agree with him. There are two kids in the class (of 5 including Zai) who is really disruptive. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not blaming them or the parent or helper (yes! One of the adult accompanying is a helper. And she have to take care of 2 in the class! I wonder where is the parents.) They are after all just 2. I’m sure when my boy get familiarize with the environment he will be equally disruptive. So we conclude they are a little too young for the class now. Maybe when he turns 2.5 or 3 years old we will trial at another place again.

Chubby felt that we wasted $30+ but I thought it was a good experience. We never try we will never know. And I don’t want to deny my boy with anything. Plus I did pick up a few activities I can do with my boy now. He particularly likes the riding one. We will do it at night and he even request MeiMei to ride with him (Oh my poor legs).

So till then I will continue to hunt around and see if there is any he can attend when he gets older. Any suggestions?