The blog has been a little quiet as I was a busy with work, managing the house while my helper goes home and we just got back from a family trip to Melbourne.
As we pass the 1st quarter of 2014, I’m doing a little reflection of how things are thus far and how to carry on with the road ahead.
I can see my boy growing up. He has almost abandon his toddlerhood and is a young boy now. He still give us his innocent moments but always leave us in awe with the things he learn and remember each day. I really wish to do more for and with him to maximize his full potential, but I’m clueless as to how.
He still have his bad times. Especially during the trip he is still testing some of his boundaries and can be really disobedient at times. I must learn to be more stern and persistent on what I need him to do.
The girl is giving us a rather hard time with her terrible twos. On days she can be sweet like an angel. Like that night when I was unwell and vomiting, she woke up from her sleep and patted my back. On days she can be so insistent on what she wants and will not listen to us. We need lots of patience to deal with her and I’m still unsure if the harsh method works. I think we still need to explore a little more with the girl.
At the same time, we are still considering our 3rd one. It will be nice to have. But can we afford the time?
Both of us have been under a lot of stress lately, from work and kids. Some days we have shorter patience and will snap at each other. Especially me. I’m trying to control my temper better and learn to think in his shoes. I’m still trying.
I also hope we can have more “we” time together. It has been a long time since we caught a movie together. I hope we can have date nights at least once a month. I’m still hoping.
We are also planning to work something out together. I just hope I can assist him well, and our relationship can reach another level through this.
I’m also reflecting on the future of this blog. I have been thinking why I’m still blogging when my readership has not increase much over the years. And if I’m revealing too much about myself and my family, especially the kids. I really envy those bloggers who have a fair amount of readership and also when they get to review things for free. Truly speaking, I wish I am like them. But I know, my language sucks and I couldn’t really write well. So why should I continue this blog?
I tried recalling why I started blogging. Back then really it’s the “in” thing. And when the kids came along I want to record their progress and also to share the things I learn along the way as a parent and as an individual. I asked myself again, has this change? No, I still like to share information with anyone who wants to know. So does it matter that my constant readership is not high? Maybe not. It also doesn’t matter that I don’t make something material out of this. I just hope that the information I shared here will provide some form of help to those who found it. So yes, I will continue to blog.
Something I can’t run away from. It hasn’t been a good time at work for the past quarter. In fact, since Q4 of 2013. There were uphill tasks, unfortunate events and bad news. I’m beginning to doubt my ability and wonder if I’m cut out to do the work. A part of me feel like running away from all these, but another bigger part of me wish that I could resolve everything and not just escape from the responsibilities. I may not get anything material in return, but it will be a good learning lesson for me.
Although I passed my health checkup with flying colors last year, I do feel my health has deteriorate the last few months. My gastric is making me nausea on and off, and I know it will be worst once I get pregnant. So I’m trying to find ways to strengthen it.
My lower back has improved for a while and now it’s coming back. I think the trip to Melbourne may have worsen it again. I guess I have to go back to my stretching exercises every night.
My sinseh also recommend me to do more exercises to improve my general health. I dunno if my legs can take the impact of jogging again. I think I should start something from next week, probably a short jog with Chubby for a start.
I’m still in my March issue of my parenting magazine. And it has been many months since I last pick up a proper book to read. I want to go back to reading, but there is just too many distractions and too little time. How?
Looks like it wasn’t a fantastic start to 2014, I’m just hoping it get better over time. And I believe it will be so when I start doing some of the things here. So wish me luck and hopefully I can achieve some of the things here by end of Q2.
How has your 2014 been thus far?