The Labor Part II

Finally on 9 March 2010 at around 6pm while I was seated in front of my lappy surfing the net, I felt the urge to go toilet… before I can stand up, I was "leaking" already… i quickly stood up, thinking I couldn't control my urine… but as I do that, more water came "gushing" down.. i knew it.. my water bag has burst… cos the water was clear and it was really a puddle…

Lucky my HP was within reach… and surprisingly I was quite calm… I think the false alarm(s) have trained me well… i dialed my hubb number and ask him where he is.. cos he is suppose to be home hours ago.. and he told me he was downstairs cleaning the car *faintz*… i told him my waterbag has burst and ask him to quickly come up…

I then call out to my younger SIL who is the only person in the house.. she came over and helped me clean up the water while I go to the toilet and wash myself up…. as I have already taken a bath before that I didn't take another one again although I was tempted to…

hubb was back home soon, and called my MIL as our dinner is with her… luckily she is reaching home soon… so we waited, took our dinner, hubb took a shower before we head down to the hospital… and I gave my gynae a call to tell them I won't be in for appointment that day as my water bag has burst (and i just changed the appointment like an hour before my waterbag burst… *duhz*)…

we reached the hospital at about 7pm+, was put on the CTG to monitor my contractions and my dilation was measured… only 1 cm… *sighz*… so the long wait began…

my contractions were still irregular for the next hour or so.. but the pain is getting more… i was feeling pain in my rib cage and lower body… even have to get my hubb to hold press on my rib cage to help ease the pain… still the pain was bearable…. and by 10pm, I was only 4 cm dilated…. i was like O.M.G…. this is going to take very long.. and I'm tired already… so I make the decision to go for epidural after struggling with the idea for hours… initially wanted to go all natural.. but i think i'm dilating to slowly and its going to tire me out (and bear in mind that I didn't sleep well the night before also)… i'm not sure if i will still have the energy to give birth by the time I'm fully dilated…

till now, I never regret the decision… after the epidural was given to me at about 11pm, i was more comfortable.. the pain in the rib cage is still there but more manageable as i don't have my lower body pain to add on… and I think hubb is the happiest, cos he got to rest and no need to press on my rib cage for me… he was able to sleep almost all the way until 5am plus in the morning.. while i wake up in between because of the pain and also because the nurses have to come in to check my dilation…

and my dilation was slow.. about 1 hour 1 cm.. and when it reaches about 8 cm.. it gets even slower… takes 2 hours and I just reach my 9 cm….. even with the epidural, I was getting a little fustrated with the slow process.. my gynae even called in the morning to check why I'm taking so long… 😛 he tot I would have popped already…

by 7:30am, the mid-wife came and say that I should try pushing as I was about 10 cm dilated… so I tried… but I was doing it all wrong… maybe because I'm on epidural plus i hardly constipate, so i really dunno where to push.. the mid-wife was not helpful at all too.. she is so discouraging.. just say you are doing it wrong, you should push down there… i'm like WTF, this is my first time you know… and she is like just doing a job and not helping at all.. unlike the mid-wife i met the night before.. i think they are nicer….

so by 8:30am, the mid-wife just gave up and told me not to push anymore since its already an hour… she will call my gynae and get him to help out… i felt really lousy then… and i think the mid-wife is just doing a show.. she just wanted the gynae to do job… *sighz*…

about 15 minutes later, my gynae arrived… he checked on me and had the same comments that I'm not pushing it the right way… but he was more encouraging… and by the 2nd contraction after he arrive i was improving already under him… this make me hate the mid-wife even more…

but my improvement was enough.. so in the end he has to use forceps to help Zaizai come out… and the funny thing is when he was pulling him out nobody told me he was half way out already.. not my gynae not even my husband… i almost wanted to give up at that time cos i feel like i'm tearing apart down there already… the first tot i have was I don't want to give birth anymore…

it was so painful that i make some noise… and i was scolded by that stupid mid-wife to keep quiet.. i mean i know "screaming" makes me loose energy, but its a form of pain relief.. and there is no need to scold me lor… really hated the mid-wife… cannot repeat anything more than that…

and "soon" it was over….. Zaizai is out… and hubb gets to cut his umblical cord and they put Zaizai on my body…. i felt like crying.. not so much "touched" that I have given birth to a human being.. more of a relief that its over… hahahahaha… i'm so inhumane..

my gynae continue to "work" on me while they clean up Zaizai and take his measurement… all this while, the reality still haven't sink in… i'm just tired and relief… i haven't feel the joy of seeing Zaizai yet… is there something wrong with me?

after a while all is over and we were left in the delivery suite to wait as the ward is not ready… and my first tot? i was very hungry… i ate very little dinner the night before.. for fear that I need to go for ECC and also I would puke from taking epidural… so hunger came in… hubb could even go for breakfast while i stayed in bed waiting for lunch to come and could only sip on Milo…

after tot? now that Zaizai is 2 weeks old.. i think reality still haven't sink in to me… i'm still like have I given birth to Zaizai? his my son? I felt quite "normal" except for the fact that I need to feed him regularly… maybe because he is still small… i can't play or interact much with him yet? i dunno…

will I be having my 2nd one? of course i would although the pain is really intimidating… but that will be another 2 years.. before that, we have to work out our sums and make sure we can afford.. 🙂

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